Disconnected Connections

Knowing that I belonged to my loved ones connected me to a sense of well-being and happiness, and in turn as a child I felt fulfilled.

In many ways, I've felt that deep down I've always craved a sense of community and belonging.

So as I grew older I had to be resilient in keeping up the image to this kind of self fulfillment, even if I had to fake it.

This attitude can become toxic and addictive because we've now given up our power to choose happiness based on certain conditions - as opposed to just being happy by being myself.

I personally believe the disconnect from our true self begins here, and the journey away from actual self worth has now set sail.

The fine line between prioritizing our own well being and having meaningful connections takes self awareness along with the knowledge and acceptance of our own vulnerabilities.

Because when does selfless become selfish or vice versa?

Is it when we seek our own happiness over others?

And how do we balance between justice and compromise?

Sounds to me like the never ending battle of internal conflicts between humans throughout time.

I guess at some point it comes down to how can "we" instead of just "me" can become a reality.

I think it takes more than just building self-awareness, practicing self-compassion, and cultivating a strong sense of self-worth.

Because unless we truly want to be alone, than belonging to others also takes knowing their boundaries and self worth too.

 

Mahalo and Aloha 🤙🏽